Again, thank you all. Yes, I really like this doctor. He is patient, and on the two visits I have had with him he answers all of my questions and is always ready with a detailed answer.

I think what Annie says is part of my problem. So many bad things have happened in my life since May ( the return of my young sister's cancer being the saddest) and a flurry of so much that is related to the horrible car accident that I probably have a case of post traumatic stress syndrome.

I have always been a rather anxious person, but since this latest fracture it has definitely increased.

In the past ten days I actually have started to improve. I notice my thoughts are b less anxious, and I have been laughing more. My husband even noted the other evening that he was surprised to hear me laughing at something silly on the television.

People used to describe me as a person who was a lot of fun to be around. In fact, I was known for my good sense of humor.

I know all of those good qualities are within me, and I have started painting and drawing, and most of the artwork is colorful and fun, but when I write the words come out sad, so I have decided not to write much for awhile.

I am going back to believing in good outcomes. I simply must.

Lavender, it is.

Paula